Wednesday, May 10, 2006
the holidays are here! cheers to all, i'm happy! seems like i have all the time in the world now. yeah, the maths paper was ok, hard to live with mathematics arh, but casey and weisin were really of a great help, and i think i survived ! high 5^
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finished one yr of university! feels weird that i am already one yr ahead of josh, sorry dear haha. but the yr was an eye opener. really, in adm... i felt like a little frog in a big big well. the art scene seemed much
complicated than i thought. (or rather i never thought of that).
there are times when i still feel scared, as though this art thingy is not where i m suppose to be? maybe i am just not cut out for it.
maybe god made a mistake? and when i failed myself so many times,
i felt like giving up, all the tears of
sadness,
questions about my future, the art dream seemed too far fetched for me. the struggles..
I am glad that i hung onto moral values that i kept for myself. there is probably a greater temptation to stray away in school now, not saying that an art school is bad, but the people, the way they think are so different. still, adm has a bunch that are so creative, so open, so charismatic! they are lovely in their own way. not aliens of course. i am probably stuck in between now, neither science nor art. but fret not, i just merely opened my eyes. the world seemed so different now. i still prefer my comfort yellow and orange happy world.
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thankyou all those who encouraged me to keep going, that this dream is not that far away from reality.
esp josh, i know you've been exceptionally tolerant with my
ultra busy schedules.. i'll manage it well k..thankyou dear! and
group 6,
i'll miss all of you! you made my first yr fun and memorable(minus the plaster) i've to really be receptive to new ideas and new changes, be observant, be patient,
just be myself. the challenge is greater ahead. *the next yr will be more exciting! visual com here i come!
posted @11:19 AM
